Friday, September 12, 2014

Fast Forward In Life

I've been overwhelmed by work and my internship the past five weeks or so and will continue to be for another five until some free time becomes available for roughly four weeks when I'm on simpler rotations.

It is amazing how life can suck you in so much to the point you have to put your hobbies on hold. Nevertheless, life is all about balancing the temporal and spiritual.

Today was the last day at my transfusions rotation at the LDS Hospital up in Salt Lake City. I enjoyed the rotation very much despite of the relatively long commute. Basically, my life consisted of wake up, commute, intern, commute home, and get ready for the next day.

Similarly, the same thing will probably happen starting next week when I carry on with clinical chemistry until mid-October. The only difference is, I'll be up extremely early (probably more tired), but hopefully be home before 4:30pm. The downside is, I'd have to be in bed by 9 or 9:30 if I don't want to exhaust myself.

Life probably wouldn't have been as challenging if I didn't have to work. Well, I do work 20 hours a week at my current job in order to pay for my expenses. After all, I don't know if I will get a full-time position here in Utah because it's contingent on a few things. In addition, I've decided to pick up shifts at the IMC for microbiology. I am simply a glutton for punishment. However, when you want to save for a rainy day quickly, you've gotta do what you gotta do.

So, what does this has to do with spirituality? Needless to say, temple attendance has been dismal. I hope to change it a bit by participating in the Ogden Temple dedication in two weeks. It's not actual attendance, but it is a much needed experience to buffer my drained spirit. Look at this post! It's not even about anything thought-provoking, but a simple log of what's been happening...

The good news is, I'm not in such a bad shape. I'm just not where I want to be ideally. There is one thing I could do amidst the chaos that is the rest of the year: the desire to have spiritual experiences while being preoccupied by tidal waves of work. It worked well for me during my last year of undergrad studies, but I've since slipped off that routine due to added responsibilities since.

I know it seems trivial, but Gandalf had said, "Saruman believes it is only great power that can hold evil in check, but that is not what I have found. I found it is the small everyday deeds of ordinary folk that keep the darkness at bay. Small acts of kindness and love."

Even Jesus taught that we have to love God and our neighbors (Mark 12:31); things which start with ourselves. He didn't command us to fight off the evil in the world and be the champion of justice everywhere, but He exhorted us to change from within.

The truth of the matter is, when everyone is taking care of their own business right, we wouldn't have as many problems as we do today in our society. It won't be perfect, but we certainly won't be as troubled as we are now.


Until I have more free time to perform more deeds, I hope thoughts will suffice this day.