Stressful Bliss

They are so fuzzy that I'm gonna die!

Remember how I've been in a foul mood for the past week or two?  Well, there were some leverage this week even though I had 4 tests to deal with, one of which I decided to put off until tomorrow.

The cynicism, for once, was getting on my nerves. After almost having a meltdown and being able to talk to authoritative folks about the situation, it turned out what I really needed was some downtime.  Nevertheless, I appreciated the fact that there people willing to sit down and listen.

This past Wednesday, I decided to skip my morning classes to get myself ready for my Chem223 exam.  While it seemed like a bad move, I felt a lot better afterwards because I didn't have to deal with my classes and getting up way early to prepare to head out.  It's amazing how stress can wreck your life if you are not careful.

Other interesting moments in the week including a discussion with my cousin which turned into a bitter exchange of words.  I'll admit that I'm not always the most tactful person, but it's difficult to deal with a biased 19-year-old girl who thought she knew everything.  Ironically, the encounter made me appreciate my mother a lot more.  I've had unkind opinions of her, but I failed to realize that she's improved much since she came in contact with the Church, albeit she chose to leave it.  Maybe when it's all said and done, I am the most biased person around those circumstances.

On that note, I had a good conversation with my Uncle Eddy as opposed of the depressing attitude I had with him last week.  Despite of the fact that what I have in life is less than ideal, I've been failing to highlight the good things in life.

Sometimes, I need to remember my own words: I'm not the man I want to be, but I'm not the man I'm used to be.

This weekend at work was awesome!  We had Tucanos for dinner!  My coworkers and I have never ate so well.  A lot of this had to do with the joint-effort of George, Simon, and some other managers of other departments in easing the tension between the production crew and rest of the broadcasting personnel.  It's a long and complicated story, but which organization doesn't have its strife?  In other note, it was a game well-played by BYU and some humorous moments were captured on-screen.

Sunday was more like the Sabbath it should be this time since snapping out of the abyss.  There were some very good talks during sacrament meeting (I don't often compliment the speakers due to my critical nature).  At any rate, I am a lot more content than I usually am.

Next stop...get past the MMBio441 test.  A class I no longer care due to the toll other classes have got on me.  Taking that class made me realize how much I didn't like molecular biology.  Although, I'll still finish the minor just because there are other aspects of it I really enjoy.  One thing is for sure, I don't like research that much, especially knowing about other people's research.